As each year draws to a close, I take the time to ponder it, reflect upon what went well, and what didn't, what I can change, and what I cannot. I am starting this new year with some new goals. I am choosing to focus on what didn't work and what I can change to make it better. I am starting my days with exercise, and taking the kids to the gym for P.E. first thing on school days. It is my prayer that school will go better after we burn off some extra energy, and fitness is important. I feel better when I'm active. I have been avoiding the gym because there is a guy there who gives me the creeps, but I realized that we are spending way too much money each month on a FAMILY membership for one person in our family to use the facility! My solution, work out some at home, and then exercise there with the kids. If they are with me, the creepy guy might say hi, but that's the extent of it. He's also a dad, so he's careful of what he says in front of the kids. Included in my fitness goals are to run a total of 500 miles total this year. BruCrewDad's running friends are aiming for 1000, and BruCrewDad himself is aiming for 1500, but that goal is too lofty for me. If I run 10 miles a week, I will still have 2 weeks to be on vacation, sick, or have a headache. (I can't run with a headache.) Added to my fitness goal are my health goals of limiting my sugar intake and having a more set schedule (go to sleep/wake up at the same time).
I have house goals too. I am working harder with the kids to put things away instead of "down." I have been throwing things away. (Little Man had a full 13 gallon garbage bag taken from his room last night!)
One thing that I can't claim as a goal that I have prayerfully set, and I don't know how long it will continue, but God has removed my desire to "read for fun." Reading has always been my escape. House stressing me out? I find a quiet spot to read. Kids making me crazy? Go in the bathroom, lock the door and read. If my mind was lost in the pages of a story, it didn't matter what else was going on. God has changed the desire to escape it through books. Now, when the house is stressing me out, we put on praise music and clean. When the kids are making me crazy with their bickering, we sit down and the table and do a craft, or go to the gym and blow off some steam by running or throwing tennis balls at the wall as hard as we can. Only God can do that in me!!!! (This does not mean that I am not reading anything at all, just not reading much fiction right now.)
Lastly, and most importantly, I have set some goals for my relationship with the Lord. I read my Bible regularly, but have never read the entire Bible cover to cover. (To be honest, Leviticus bogs me down!) I am reading a One Year Bible in the evenings before bed. My goal this year is to read the whole Bible. I am also reading a devotion with a verse with my morning OJ, and studying the names and attributes of God with my morning coffee. I might also read another devotion book that I love the author of with my afternoon coffee. I want Him to consume me!!!!
Have you reflected on last year? Have you prayed over this year? What is God wanting to do in you? What is God wanting to do through you? What is God wanting you to change? Psalm 37:4 says "Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart." (NIV) For a long time, I misunderstood that verse. I thought if I just focused on God, He'd give me whatever I wanted. God is not a genie in a bottle! God has taught me that if I delight in Him, His desires will become my desires. The desires of my heart will be the desires of His heart, and what I ask for, He will delight to give me, because they will reflect His nature, His purposes, and His glory. That is my biggest goal for this year-to delight myself in Him. What about you? Do you delight in Him?